What's Up With....

Me.

I am a busy bee.

1. Classes are keeping me busy. I have been very successful. Only one B.

2. Went on an interview. Did not get the job. I am quite okay with the outcome.This is the second time I have interviewed for this particular position. Probably the last. God has a plan for me.

3. It's the holiday season so I have obligations with the church. Rehearsals and so forth.

4. I believe that I am going to start a new case for my volunteer position.

5. Have a meeting at the end of the month for future home buyers. Getting paperwork in order for that.

6. Trying to stay social with my friends.

That's what is going on with me. Just trying to stay sane.

Dress Codes

I know most of you have heard of the dress code alterations that Morehouse College has imposed on their students. Not wearing high heels and mini skirts, no sagging pants and no make up. Now this has been a controversial issue for the past week. I personally don't see anything wrong with a dress code. As a former student of Clark Atlanta University I believe in upholding the traditions and pride of the schools within the Atlanta University Center.

As a student I do remember wearing my hair wrapped up in a scarf almost every morning to class. (8:00am courses) When I look back at that I know that it was not appropriate. Colleges and Universities are learning institutions. Not only are you enrolled to obtain book knowledge, but you also get training on how to make it in the real world. You learn how mature into responsible women and men.

A young man wearing a mini skirt and halter top to class I believe is inappropriate. It's a distraction. I also believe that it is inappropriate for a young lady to wear a mini skirt and halter to class. It takes the focus off learning. I do not want to see a man wearing a skirt. It is ridiculous. My blog, My opinion. Sagging pants is just plain stupid and pointless. For men and women. If these students were in my class, I would have to ask them to leave. Period. Don't like my rules sign up for someone else's class.

It has been a few years since I have stepped foot unto the AUC but I would hate to see that the students are not taking pride in their school. It is not like they don't teach you the history of the school. There is a mandatory class dedicated to this your freshman year. HBCU's are special. I hope the students aren't taking this for granted.

Some say that it's a free country you should be able to do what you please. I agree this is a free country. This country grants you the ability to make choices. There are thousands of higher learning institutions. Don't like what the school stands for, go somewhere that is more acceptable of the things you believe in. That is one of the great things about being an United States Citizen.

It's Official

Fall has arrived. It is so chilly here. It rained for about two day straight. Now I am not going to complain even though I want to. You guys know by now I am not a fan of cool weather. The good thing about today is that it didn't rain and the sun did come out.

As you can see I changed my background. I am trying to embrace the season. LOL I also added a new tune. It's not Wednesday but I felt like doing so here it is. Mo Better Blues. Remember the Spike Lee movie? Well I liked it and I love this song from the movie.

Enjoy.

The Event

Last night my church had a ladies night out. I invited my mother to come with me. It was a great event. I am a bad blogger because I did not take any pictures. Hopefully they will post the photos online. Anyways, we arrived and they had four carriages to take us on rides. Mother and I skipped that. It was kinda chilly last night. It was however very pretty. People who did partake said they enjoyed it. They had tables and chair set up in the parking lot with a oversized tent that had goodies inside. The food was good. We had pastas, salads, and chicken. There were also many deserts and a chocolate fountain. (yummy)

After partaking in the biddles we walked the red carpet to get our picture taken. I thought it was so cute. They had backgrounds set with our Rock Girls logo and the many sponsors for the event. It was very Hollywood.(LOL) We went inside the sanctuary and took our seats for the fashion show. It was cute. They had people from the congregation design, and sew pieces to be shown on the runway. I like this idea because I got to see the talent that we have in our church.

There were many giveaways including: purses, mall gift certificates, gift baskets, food gift certificates, audio sets of pastors teachings, new ipods, and two bridal gowns.

The choir then had to lead praise and worship. None of us knew what songs we were going to sing but it all worked out well. Then the guest speaker was introduced. Her name was Dr Stacia Pierce. She was outstanding. She had a right know word for us ladies. Basically she was telling us that we are in a moment that God is going to show us favor because we are his favored. She stated that it was time for us to get back to being what God intended us ladies to be. Praying women. Deeply planted in the word. She said two things that I know she was talking about me when she said it. 1) God has so many things in store for you that you could not even imagine but he need you to stop being comfortable with what you have and where you are. 2) Because you are his favored, he will align you with people who will work on your behalf. Meaning that sometimes you may not be the most qualified but you get the job anyway because there is something else on the inside of you that radiates to the outside.

It was powerful. Mom enjoyed it. I enjoyed it. Can't wait till the next time.

You Can Run, But You Can't Hide

Lately a few people that I know have been talking about relocation for various reasons. Don't like the city, need to get away from people or family, a man/woman. Some of these reasons not the right ones in my opinion. A relative of mine decided out of the blue that he was going to move to a whole different part of the country. He informed me of his decision 3 days before his move. I did not have a problem with him moving, he is a mature(in age)adult. I did however have and issue with his spur of the moment decision. He said that it was not. (whatever) Now this person is back after 2 weeks. Didn't work out. (What a surprise)

My reasoning for writing this post is that 1. I am plan tired of people dogging my home city. It may not be Chi Town, L.A or NYC but it's your home. It's what you make of it. 2. relocation is not a problem solver. If something is wrong with you on the inside, it will be wrong with you wherever you go until you solve the issue. 3. If you are going to move have a plan. Don't just make decisions and not know what the h.e. double hockey sticks you are going to do.

This person returned and blames things on other folks instead of themselves. Says that me and someone else called them selfish. I know I didn't say this.

Uggh............ I am not in the mood for this stupid crap.

Congratulate me ladies. If you can't tell I am really trying hard not to use any profane words in this post.Every time I go to use one I tell myself that there is power in the tongue. I am working on my deliverance.

Whew... Just needed to vent. Thanks for allowing me to.

It's That Time Again

This Wednesday's new song is by a man who probably the smoothest brother to ever exist. My auntie/cousin loves this man. She met him when he was living and they hung out together. She also plays his Star Spangled Banner every time we go visit her. Hee Hee. Gotta love her.

You guys know who I'm talking about. Marvin Gaye. I had to pick a song, and let me tell you it was hard. How do you pick you favorite Marvin song. So this is not my favorite because I don't have a favorite by him, but I do happen to love this song "After The Dance." Hope you enjoy.

Oh..........

I don't know about you but I loved Patrick Swayze. I was in the middle of rolling over last night and heard he passed away. Prayers go out to his family.

Ya'll Know What Time It Is

It's Wednesday. So I am still trying to stay with mellow songs to match my background. Let me just say that it was kinda hard to pick something. So I thought of the most laid back smooth male RB/Pop artist from the eighties. He was a huge singer, songwriter, producer. Some thought he was a hottie. That's right I am talking about Babyface. So I added "This is For the Cool In You." Upbeat but not too much.

Stay Cool......

So I have been bad on posting this month. No particular reason why. I guess I didn't have much to say. So I will let you in on what is going in my life right now. Nothing much. The fall semester started this week so I am back in the swing of things for that. I had my behavioral management class yesterday. I think I am going to like it. It is an educational psychology course I am required to take. Since my undergrad was in psychology and sociology it is a good fit for me. Finally a class that I don't mind being in till 9:30 pm. I have a foundations class tonight. Probably will be boring but I guess I shouldn't prejudge.

This month our church had a campaign (so to speak) called random acts of kindness. Everyday we are supposed to do something kind or nice for people. So I have been trying to keep up with that. What you don't realize is that you do kind things for people almost everyday like holding the door for someone or smiling at them.

I guess I could tell you that I love reality tv. Let me rephrase I enjoy most reality tv shows. Not all. I like Project Runway, So You Think You Dance, Top Chef,etc. I guess I could do another post just about that. Umm.........

Later.

What Day Is it?

Way Back Wednesday. This weeks selections take me back to when my friend's mother would drive us to school or the bus stop. It seemed like every morning one or both of these songs would come on the radio. Miss Jackie loved " Sittin on the Dock of the Bay" by Otis Redding. I can remember like it was yesterday. The song would come on and she would say " Hey, my song." Bill Withers " Lovely Day" was like a theme song. My friend would always challenge me to hold the note at the end. I also thought that these songs went good with the new background. I wanted something that would remind you of sitting on the porch with a glass of lemonade with mint, or sitting on a dock with you toes lightly touching the water in your cute summer dress.
I know you get the picture.
Happy Reminiscing!

Who You Callin A B*^$#

Ok I hate to say it but I am addicted to Real Housewives of Atlanta. But I have a real problem with the language. Every other word is B this, B that. Maybe for some people this is okay, but not for me. I just don't get it. I don't call my friends or anybody else that. My have the same respect for me. I have never accepted that phrase to reference me.

Some people say its just like when we call each other the n word. Well I don't do that. Will I continue to watch the show? Probably. I guess that means I shouldn't be ranting about this but, I just wondered if anyone else that may watch this show noticed that they have really used this word more frequently than last season.

Ugh. I am just disappointed.

What I'm Using

So if you don't already know I have been wearing my hair natural for about 18 months. This is not the first time I have gone natural but I think it is the last. I just don't need the dry and itchy scalp anymore.Let me just say that just because you go natural does not mean that you do not have to maintain your hair. I still get my hair done every two weeks. I still get deep conditioners and ends clipped and etc. On the rare occasion I do shampoo my hair at home I use Rosemary Shampoo by Carol's Daughter. I have found it to be great in removing all product build up. After using this shampoo my hair feels extremely clean.

I also like the Black Vanilla leave in conditioner. When my twist out is getting old I spray this in my hair and take my fingertips and massage my scalp. It leaves my hair smelling good and feeling soft.

I just want to say that I am not endorsing Carol's Daughter Products. I also want to say that products do not work the same on everyone's hair. But these are working for me. Are there more natural hair care products than Carol's Daughter? Yes. I just already have these and will not purchase anything else until they run out.

For those who are thinking of going natural. It's a great thing. This may sound cheezy but I feel free.

Tagged: Ten Things About Me

1. I went to a performing arts middle school. My major was dance and my minor was piano.

2. I love Human Biology. I like watching and reading things about science and how the body works.

3. I sang in the Island of Grenada when I was about 10. It was for church. My grandmother bought me a dress form one of the local vendors. I went on stage and sang my song. There was a long note I had to hold at the end of the song. When I finished I let out a loud Whew. The whole church started laughing.

4. When I was little I used to carry around a bag with cassete's and a walkman. lol

5. I love to shop. It doesn't matter what it is for. I can tell a person what stores are where at every mall here in our city.

6. I love to travel. I used to go on a big trip every year with my grandparents.

7. I don't really wear tennis shoes. I don't have a reason to.

8. I have a friend that I have known for 25 years. We met in kindergarten.

9. I love to watch sports. Especially football. I don't like playing any though.

10. At this very moment I wish I was Kerry Washington in the Bad Habits video by Maxwell. If you didn't know. He is my pretend husband.

He Has A Heart

So you guys I am addicted to The T.O Show. Was I a fan of T.O? Not Really. There is a possibility that I may become a fan. We have to see how the rest of the show goes.

Last nights episode featured T.O going back home to Alabama. He has a heart to heart with his father, who his relationship with was sketchy. He also visits his grandmother in a nursing home. She raised him and now she has Alzheimer's. She was pretty much unresponsive. She would nod her head every now and then. T.O was telling her that he never forgets were he came from and how she raised him. It was a touching moment. He broke down crying. She spoke. She told him "you going to be fine son." I lost it. I was crying, He was crying. He said he knew that it was God and by her saying those words she understood everything that he was saying.

If you missed or don't watch the show at least watch this episode. It will be re aired, August 04
2:30 AM ET/PT ON VH1
Tuesday, August 04
1:30 PM ET/PT ON VH1
Tuesday, August 04
9:00 PM ET/PT ON VH1
and other times.
Let me know what you think.

Just Because (Way Back Wednesday)

Sade, one of my favorites is supposed to be in the studio working on some new music. I'm in class so I'll make it sweet. Here is one of my favorites. Turn My Back On You.

Peace, Love, And Music.

Essence Music Festival

Make a Smilebox slideshow

Let's start off by saying that I had a great time. I felt at home in the Big Easy.
The trip started off kind of rocky. The airlines lost one of my bags. It was not the bag with my clothes and shoes thank GOD. They did find it and returned it to me late that evening.
Within the first two hours of arriving me and the homegirls went to Mother's Restaurant for our first meal. It was two blocks away from the hotel. We waited in the beaming sun for about 30 min to get inside. When we got in to my surprise it was like a diner. You find your own table and go through the line order and pay for your food. Everyone that works there call the ladies momma. The service cussed and fussed like they are at home. It was funny.

The first night of concerts the artist that performed were, Salt & Pepa, Ne-Yo, John Legend, and Beyonce. They all did great jobs entertaining the crowd. John Legend brought out Estelle and they performed together. It was cute.

Day Two we walked through the French Quarter. We had some beneits at Cafe Du Monde. We went to the Carol's Daughter store where we ran into the founder Lisa Price. We went to the French Market, which I always go to when I visit New Orleans. It is an outdoor market that sells everything from food to clothing. The performers for the second day were Jazmine Sullivan(who we missed), Robin Thicke(great) Charlie Wilson (Outstanding) he has unbelievable energy on stage, Anita Baker( flawless voice), Maxwell( who I love but had to leave, it was 2:30 before he got onstage).

Day Three we went to Harrahs to eat. We had every intention to go to the TD Jakes celebration but by the time we got to the convention center all the seat were gone. We did walk around the convention center an visit some of the booths. It was fantastic. There were so many talented minority artist and designers. We decided that we were going to have a special dinner for our last night. We went to NOLA one of Emril Lagasse's restaurants. It was worth it. We had great service and wonderful food. When we arrived to the Superdome for the last night of concerts we had missed EnVouge which I was sad , but a girl has to eat. We arrived when Teena Marie was already performing. She did a great job. She had her daughter sing with her and let me say that daughter has a big future ahead of her. Next was Al Green. A mix of R&B and Church. I don't know how I feel about that. Then Lionel Ritchie got on stage. Let me say that I really didn't want to see him. He made me a fan. He threw down. He had a Commadores reunion and the place went wild. Everyone was on their feet dancing and singing it was awesome. Then the Band that shuts it down. My moms favorite; Frankie Beverly and Maze. Everyone was doing slides in the the Superdome to his music. Dancing in the aisles. It was magical. It was like a big family reunion. This night had to be my favorite night of all.
I recommend you attend. The concerts lasted a little to long but it was worth it.
Thanks Essence, all the performers, all the wonderful vendors I meet, and the wonderful city of New Orleans.
See Ya Next Year.

Coming Soon

Essence Fest Review.
Right now I am still recovering. Need my rest.

Later.

Prayers Going Up

Let's all keep the Jackson Family In our prayers.

Also Farrah Fawcett's Family.

What a day.

I've Been Holding

About a month ago I put an offer in for an house. It was not accepted. The listing agent went up on the price 20,000. Not having that. I did not withold this info on purpose. I was not discouraged, I just let it go. I have classes that have diverted my attention away from houses right now. The real estate agent wants to show me these older homes in neighborhoods that I am not interested in. I have a small budget but I will not settle on just anything. I told her I will wait until something comes along that is newer and I like. She says that I have to start somewhere. Who says that your first house has to be something you just settle on.

Do you think I am being to picky?

Throwback Thursday

Two weeks ago I saw a documentary about Minnie Riperton. I cried. She died at the young age of 31 from breast cancer. She has a few songs that I like. Since I didn't post a new song on Monday I will post "Memory Lane." I also like "Come Inside" but it's not an appropriate song for my blog.
Enjoy

Party Pooper

Some people say that I act to old to be my age. As you know I am Going to New Orleans for the Essence Music Festival. Two of the young ladies going with me found information about an after party at a club. I am not interested in going to be honest. Clubbing is not my thing, It has never been my thing.It's wasted money in my opinion. Many people I know say this is weird for a 29 year old to not like to go out. Maybe I am just tired and not feeling good today but I really am not interested. I want to have fun during my trip but the festival is enough for me. Walking around Bourbon street is a party in itself. That is free fun. $40 plus dollars to stand around looking at people is craziness. I would rather spend that money on something tangible.
OK I will stop rambling know.

In Session

My first summer course started yesterday. It is a technology course. I now have a skype account. If any of my bloggers have an account and would like to skype with me let me know and I will share my name. It seems really cool.

New Music Monday

I haven't posted any music in weeks. Shame on me. Well my new favorite R&B song is "Point Of It All" by Anthony Hamilton. There is nothing better than hearing a man sing a love song. I just close my eyes and go to another place when I hear this song. It just does something for me.
Enjoy!

Right Track

I earned an A- in my first graduate class. YEAH. Lets see if I can keep it going.

Weekend Review

I apologize in advance for this post if it offends anyone.

Saturday I went to an Art Party. I saw something I liked but I did not purchase. I woman that was the selling agent was trying to show me frames that would come with the print if I purchased. I told the lady that I didn't like anything gold. Why she kept showing trimmings in gold I don't know. Ugh! Basically I had to go over in her suitcase and find the frame option I would want so she could give me a price if I decided to purchase. I found a black frame and a brushed nickel frame. Simple and contemporary. Other people at the party were telling me that they thought my choice of frame was to plain. You guys know me well enough to know that this did not sit well with me. Why is it that lately people feel the need to offer suggestions that I have not asked for? I probably gave them one of my looks. Anyways, the print was of to faces a young black male and a young black female. It had muted colors like black, gray, and browns. It would not look good with a frame with intricate carvings. Plus everyone has their own style. I didn't offer my suggestions on their purchases. Gees.

Sunday I went to the Anthony Hamilton, Musiq Soulchild and Crisette Michelle concert. I have seen everyone in concert before except Anthony Hamilton. He was an awesome performer. Now usually I purchase very good seats. This time is was short notice and I went the cheap option. Mistake. Sis and I had to change our seats in order for her to see Anthony. There was a row of larger women that stood up from start to finish. Plus a lady right in front of me kept flashing me because her pants were too little and every time she got up her butt crack was showing. Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let me just say that I don't have issues with larger people but I have to say that black people need to get it together when it comes to their health. Everywhere I looked there people who looked like the were on their way to heart disease, diabetes and so forth.

Good news. I got my laptop back. YEAH. Now I just have to get my software installed for my wireless Internet and I am back in business.

No Topic

I don't have any one thing to blog about today but I thought I should post something because it's been over a week since my last post.
I had a kind of embarrassing moment this week. I normally am on top of things when it comes to my appearance. Well I put on this new dress the other day and did not know that you could see through it until 8:35 pm when one of my fellow choir members told me. I am so glad that I had on flesh tone underclothing. The dress being see through would explain why a man harassed me earlier that evening at the mall when I was picking up a cardigan from the Gap.
He asked - Where did you get the dress?
Me - Old Navy.
He- You have exquisite taste.
Me- Giving him the eye and crazy face ( thinking Old Navy not exquisite, just a plain ole store)
He- Don't you think?
Me- I say yeah ( so he will stop talking to me)( Maybe he is really admiring my handbag)
He- Continues saying something
Me- Ignoring him (cross over to the other side of the mall)
Me- Thinking ( Sexual Predator, he was kind of old looking and I look very young for my age)
He- Steady trying to talk to me.
Me- Speed walking.

Last Saturday my mother graduated with her masters of management. She did participate in the commencement because when she got her undergrad degree she did not walk so my grandparents got to see their only daughter receive her degree. Pics to come.

My PC is still out of commission. The tech called me last week because he thought that he had found the problem. Well he didn't. Now it has to go to the manufacturer. I will not talk anymore on this blog about my laptop until I get I back. I know you guys probably don't care :)

That's all folks. Blog ya in a few days.

Mind Your Business

I dropped my laptop at the store where it was purchased for it to be sent off for service. I went up to the counter and gave the lady siting behind it my laptop, but I forgot the power cord in the car so I ran outside to get it. I come back in and a man asks me what is wrong with it. I told him what was happening. He says "it may just be( such and such). I can show you how to do (this, that, and the other)."
I'm thinking that he doesn't work for the service department. He has not turned on the computer to see what I am talking about. Which means that you can show me how to do all this stuff and it may not fix the problem. His talking starts to make me angry. I know I was giving him one of my looks.
You may say, Oh he was trying to be helpful. I say I bought a warranty for this specific reason. So I shouldn't have to do a darn thing to it put turn it on and enjoy it. In the kindest tone I could I told him No. I was not going to do anything.
Mind you it was Sunday and I had just left church. I was thinking all sorts of nasty words I could say. But there is power in the tongue so I refrained. I think he made me mad because I didn't nor did the lady at the service desk ask him for his help. Did I get mad probably for no reason? Maybe. Do I feel Bad? No. It could have been worse.

I'm Off

Today is a holiday for me. Our office is closed. I am so excited. Now the weather on the other hand is not so great. It has been raining since last night. I have a off day and I don't really want to go outside in these elements. So what am I doing? Walking back and forth between the computer and the washer and dryer. How Fun.

Repairs

My computer is out of commission for awhile. I am tired of messin with it. I am taking it in to be serviced. The stupid thing will not stay on. It keeps restarting itself and then it comes up with an error message about every program that was installed on the freakin pc when I bought it.

I really feel empty without it. I can't read my blogs while I'm at work :(

Computers are like men in my opinion. Can't live with them. Cant live without them.

Any Detectives

I am lovin the new series The No 1 Ladies Detective Agency. I may be a little bias because I love Jill Scott. But I really do think it is a good show. The stories are interesting and anytime I feel as it I could place myself right smack into the show as a character it is a good show. I am just happy to see an African, and African American casted show that is positive. No ignorant, loud talking, profanity yelling, booty shaking, backstabbing, gossiping black women and men. If you haven't watched the show please do and spread the word. WE NEED MORE SHOWS LIKE THIS.

Weekend In Review

I had a crazy weekend. It started Saturday morning. I wasn't feeling well but had to work half a day. Went into work started feeling better. Went to the mall to find missing pieces for my outfit I was going to wear for church. After that I went to get my hair done. My friends and I had plans to go to a dinner and movie. I met at one of my friends house to ride with her. I had not really eaten all day. Just a snack here and there because I wasn't feeling good.
We went to see the movie Obsessed. I was not that impressed. The restaurant we were going to was in the same complex as the theatre so me and two other friends walked over. We were seated. Our orders were taken. I had started feeling bad again as soon as we sat down. I excused myself and went to the restroom. My friend that I rode with called my cell and asked if I was okay. I let her know the deal. She came in the restroom and she said "we are leaving" I really must have looked bad. I could not even drive myself home. She had to drop me off. Needless to say I did not make it to church Sunday. Now I have to deal with the choir police on Tuesday at practice.

At A Loss

The devil is working very hard on trying to destroy the futures of my family. Last week I wrote about my female cousins and their drama. Now it is one of the males turn.
My cell phone has been losing power for no reason. When I finally got it to work today I had 3 messages. One was from my uncle that lives in Tennessee. He doesn't text me unless it's my birthday or something like that. Well this text was not good news. He asked me to call his youngest son J and talk to him because he was depressed. When I got the opportunity to get in contact with J he didn't say anything to me out of the ordinary. Well I have gotten the whole story from my mother and aunt (J's mother). Needless to say it is not good. J has made some bad choices that could effect his whole future.
We can not share this news with my grandparents because it would worry them to death. They are the rocks of our family and I am very close to them. It is very hard for us to keep things from them because they are so wise. They are also people of deep faith and we go to them for spiritual guidance when we need it. I am asking for prayer for my family.

Decisions

When I was ten my mom's oldest brother passed away. My mother was very close to him. He had 4 girls and 2 older boys. The girls would come stay with us during the summer after my uncle passed away. They have experienced and seen many things that young ladies should not have. Needless to say they have made many wrong choices in life.

Age wise I am in the middle. Sha 31, Sham 30, Me 29, Sher 24, Shan 23. I worry about them like I am the oldest. They look to my mom as their savior, counselor, etc. Now I am not a perfect individual but I have managed to make pretty good choices. They(cousins) would say that is because I have a great mother and have spent a lot of time with my grandparents and other family members that supported me. This may well be the case. But I know that at some point you have to grow up and look at the things of your past and try and make something better for your future.

They also have at times called me boring or an old lady because I don't club hop, hang out with all kinds of different guys, smoke (you get the picture). But they want some of the peace I have. I want to say Duh. If you don't like how your life is going change your habits.

I realize that I have not been praying for them like I should. I know that is all I can do for them. I can not change how a person thinks or behaves or chooses to live their lives. I can not change how they think about me and how I live mine.

I am adding a new song, "I'll Trust You" by James Fortune. They play this song on the radio. I hope one of them will hear it and truelly listen to the words. Maybe they will figure out that everything can change in their lives with one decision.

Pre Adoption Workshop

I received a flyer from a adoption agency that I don't remember signing up for. It was to inform me of an upcoming meeting pertaining to international adoption programs and requirements and so forth. What I didn't understand is why this meeting requires a fee of $90. Needless to say I did not respond. I don't think you should have to pay for an informational meeting. Maybe I am wrong. For those who have adopted or are in the process, Is this normal?

Happy Resurrection Day

We are singing this Sunday. Beautiful Song.

Have A Wonderful Easter.

Court

I had a court hearing today for my volunteer position. I submitted my report detailing the issues concerning the case and the problems that I was having with the father. The judge decided that the child could be returned to father until permanency hearing. The thing that broke my heart was that the current foster parents started crying. It took a lot for me to hold it together. But I used my skills and I talked to them and gave them encouraging words. I let them know that I was praying for them and they thanked me for my help and concern. They were fantastic foster parents. I hope they decide that they would like to participate again because we need tham.

All that Jazz

My new songs are all jazz cuts. I like jazz. These selections are both vocal and instrumental.

Birdland many artist have played this song. I chose Miles Davis's version because he is from around my way. (East St. Louis) Plus when I danced, my group did a performance to this song. It was beautiful, classy, and powerful.

Brazilian Wedding is on one of Quincy Jones's cd's it was also featured in the Boyz in the Hood movie. The artist include Take 6. and Sarah Vaughn.

You Move Me by Cassandra Wilson words can not describe my love for this song. I love the pitch of her voice and the lyrics of this song. It is just Great! Plus it was featured in my favorite movie Love Jones.

Peace, Love, and Music

B.A.P.S.

Do you remember that crazy movie Halle Berry played in B.A.P.S.? You know the crazy hair styles she had. Well I had a woman in my office yesterday that reminded me of her. She had the big hair, crayon yellow blond coloring, and even open faced gold teeth. I kept peeking up at her hair. I tried not to but I couldn't help it. Before she left she handed me a business card. She happened to own a hair salon.HAHAHA. When she left my office I chuckled.

For those of you that don't know I wear my hair natural. So at the moment it is very curly and it gets frizzy. I guess she thought I might need her services. Some people just don't like the natural look. Maybe she thought I was admiring her hair.

My Songs

So one of the reasons I named my blog Song For You is I know the power of music. It makes us laugh, cry, laugh, reflect on old times, etc. Well one of my fellow blog sisters has so many things going on and I thought of the new song posted. "Let Go" by Dewayne Woods is a wonderful song. It is a word that we all need at some point of our lives. I thought about placing it on my music player a few weeks ago. But I didn't. Now is the perfect time. It has helped me and it is still helping me. Hope it does the same for you.

Oh, if you don't know the story of Dewayne Woods, God healed him from HIV.

Glory, Hallelujah!

Confessions

So I am following the lead of another blog I follow. I have a few things that I would like to confess.

1. The volunteer work that I am involved with is frustrating me. Lack of cooperation from all parties is really getting on my nerves. I don't have a lot of time to play with people. If I call to talk to you about your case and every time your answering machine comes on after the first ring and you don't return my call I will stop calling. I have made that decision. I will try one more time tomorrow and that is it. The position is like a second job. I makes me question if I really want a career in this aspect of the Social Services field.

2. I have a coworker that has a mental illness. With my degree I have studied these illnesses and I have a good understanding of them. But, my patience and compassion is getting thin. This particular person was having, I guess, a mini breakdown yesterday and my supervisor let her take a two hour nap. What in the H E double hockey sticks is going on? Now mind you the office was not at all busy but, I still have a problem with this. So you know what I did. I prayed not only for her but for me.

3. I think I am scared of living by myself. Whew.... that is a major confession. I seriously want to purchase a home within the next year or so. But I don't want a nice home with only one person living there. I do NOT believe in cohabitation so even if I were in a serious relationship that would not be an option. Pray for me ya'll. I am too old to be feeling like this.

Which leads me to this:

4.I Do Not Want To Be Single. I have told my friends and family that I was OK with this status but I am not. I am tired of being strong and independent. I know I will always be those things but I am ready to let my guard down a little.

So here is the deal. My posts to come will focus on some of these issues. I praised someone for expressing herself and I want to thank her for her post. It encouraged me to share some things that I just didn't want to admit.

In Shock

Yesterday before I left work for class I found out that one of my former co workers passed away. We were not that close and I had not seen him in 4 years but still feel shocked. He was only 30 years old and he died from a brain aneurysm. When things like this happen especially to someone around my age it makes me appreciate life. You just never know what tomorrow brings.

To Tell or Not To Tell

I have not given any of my close friends or family other than my sister my information about my blog. I am not sure if I want to give them access to it. For the most part I am a pretty private person. For me to have a blog is a reach. But I like my blog friends and I don't really want to share. Maybe I am being selfish. For your blogs have enriched my life it could do the same for them.

It's My Birthday

So I was born today 29 years ago. I share my birthday with my grandfather's late brother. We couldn't be more opposite. But I do remember that he used to have these parties and the only music he would play is the blues. So needless to say I kinda like the blues. I have added two songs that I love. Can you imagine a 3-4 yr old little girl singing these. My mom told me that one day we were driving and No Pain, No Gain came on the radio. I was in the backseat sing like normal. Until the part we she starts saying "be a cook in the kitchen...." Well I guess that was my favorite part because mom said that I start really belting it out. HAHAHAHA. She couldn't believe it. She said she had to pull over because it was so funny to her.

I might be...................

going to Africa. I have been sitting on this new for a few weeks. I am very close to my grandparents. Their circle of friends are like second family to me. Well one of my many grandmothers went to Ethiopia 2 weeks ago. She has a daughter that has a home in that particular country I believe. Well one of her other daughters came over to my grandparents home and I told her that I wanted to go. She informed her mother when she got back and they are planning a trip for next year and invited me. I am very excited. So far the countries that they are going to are Ethiopia and Tanzania. I know a few things about Ethiopia because I have been reading the blogs and such but I don't know anything about Tanzania. Guess it's time to do some reasearch. If everything goes well I will be in the Motherland sometime next year. Yeah..

CASA

I am a CASA volunteer. For those who don't know what that is I have included a link. Basically, I was sworn in by a judge to advocate for a child in the system. Last week I had a family support meeting. This meeting involved the child, parents(if involved), case worker, placement provider, etc. During this meeting you get a update from everyone present at the meeting about the case. There is a lot of work involved but it is very rewarding. The work also gives you first hand experience of how the court system works for adoption and placement proceedings. If you would like more info let me know.

The Big Easy

I am going to the Essence Music Fest in New Orleans for the Forth of July. I have always wanted to go and this year it's happening. I made up my mind that I was going to start living my life and not sit and wait on somebody to do things with me. That is how I found my church. So I let my sis and some friends know that I was going and that they could join me if they were interested. They said yes. We ordered tickets. Hotel arrangements made. It's a done deal. I'm very excited.

I love N.O. Thought about going to college there. Can't wait to eat all the great seafood. Go to the flea markets. I also want to tour the city and see the hurricane damage and progress they have or have not made. I just can't wait.

Prayer of Jabez

In march my grad classes start. I am trying to prepare myself for being back in school. There are so many things that I have added to my schedule this year that I don't want to overdue it. So I only registered for one class. But when summer comes I will have a larger load. So I have added a new song, The Prayer of Jabez by Donald Lawrence. Some think that this prayer is only about financial increase but it is not. Enlarging my territory is everything. So when I ask God to enlarge my territory I say Lord, surround me with the right people, open up doors for me, open my eyes to things that I can not see, let people see you in me, and increase my life financially so I may be able to do the things you want me to do.(etc) Sometimes you just have to keep it simple and say Lord, Bless Me.

More Dancing

So I was as dancer from age 4 to around age 17. It consumed a big part of my life. I even went to performing arts middle school. As a young girl I loved dance movies. So for my three new songs for the week I decided to use songs from my favorite dance movies.
"Love Man" By Otis Redding from Dirty Dancing. Loved That movie and loved the scene when this song is playing. Baby is carrying the watermelons to the " forbidden house" and Patrick Swayze (Hot) grabs her and teaches her the hip roll. She really thought she was doing something. (hahaha)
"Let's Hear It For the Boy" by Denise Williams from Footloose. This song is playing when Kevin Bacon and Sean Penn are dancing by the railroad tracks. Love that part of the movie. Just looked like they were having so much fun.
"What A Feeling" by Irene Cara from Flashdance. Oh now this movie I watched till my mother got tired of me watching it. She probably hid the tape. Of course this song is the finale song. I used to copy her moves. I had leg warmers and everything.

Dirty Dancing

Last Friday a group of friends and I participated in a cardio strip fit class. It was interesting. I learned that it takes a lot of upper body strength. The next day I could barely walk. Sunday I had to wear flats to church. I always wear heals. Well we were given a free class pass for one week to use. I had my class this evening. It was not a strip fit class, it was a dance class. I used to be a dancer so this is more familiar to me. This particular fitness studio offers many types of classes such as pilates, hip hop, cardio, personal training etc. So I signed up for a year. You can take unlimited class for twelve months . I am very excited to get back in the swing of things. Now if I could find a ballet class to join I would be set.

Maybe I'll find a picture and post.

Bubbles

On Sunday my cousin dropped her two kids off for a while so she could have some breathing time. It was a nice day so we took the kids outside. Marlyn is three and Kayla is one. They had a ball. The only thing we had for them to play with were bubbles. Here are a few pics of them enjoying themselves.

Pink Or Blue

My sister and I were talking and she had a concern about the adoption blogs I have introduced her to. She wanted to know why the majority of blogs she has read are about women or couples that are adopting girls. I told her that I really couldn't speak for anyone else, but for me I would be fine with either sex but prefer a girl. She asked why. I let her know that me being a single mother (which she fully understands because she is one) I feel boys need fathers.(Especially Afr Americans, which is how my child will be viewed whether it is from Africa or not) Not to say that girls don't, but I can not teach him how to be a man. I can introduce him to many things, guide him to live right, but I can never take the place of a father.

This got me to thinking, if I really have a call to adopt should it matter what sex the child is? If I was having a child naturally I really wouldn't have a choice. I don't know I really am flip flopping about this subject.

Feeling Behind

I was looking back over my goals and The two that are really hard for me to wrap my head around is the adoption one and the home ownership one. I think about these two everyday. I look on the computer researching all kinds of info that pertain to these particular goals.

I believe that it is hard for me to wrap my head around them because of the financial commitment both require. I believe that I may be trying to do too much too fast. But I sometimes feel that time is passing me by and that I should be at a different point in my life by now. I know that God has a plan for my life, but I am human sometimes I have these feelings.

The Women

Last week I chose three songs by men who I love. Today I have added three new songs by women who I love. So I can't say these are the only female artist who top my list because musically I am all over the place. What I can say is that I have seen these three women multiple times live in concert and they are fantastic.

India Arie's "Strength, Courage, and Wisdom" is a song that I feel represents a lot of women. Ones I know, ones who read my blog and whose blogs I follow, and myself. Whether you are following a dream, completed one, or living one you have to embody these attributes.

Jill Scott's "My Love". I love her voice and love this song. It was hard for me to pick one song by her. When I am playing this song in my car I have to remember to open my eyes because I could cause an accident. I really sing my heart out. (lol)

Erykah Badu's "Didn't Ya Know". So people my not understand Erykah, may think she is a little out there. Sometimes I agree, but the woman has a wonderfully unique voice. This song came out when I first moved back to St. Louis. I played it over and over again. I love singing Badu songs. They have so many harmonies.
You will hear more from these ladies.

Peace, Love, and Music

We are Together

Last year I saw this documentary "We Are Together." I was so moved by it. For those of you have not seen it I highly recommend you watch it. It was aired on HBO, but you can also get the DVD.

It is about children affected by the aids epidemic in South Africa. Either both parents, one parent, or caretakers have passed on from the disease. The kids stay at an orphanage and miraculously they all pretty much can sing. The plan is to make a CD and travel to America so they can raise money to build up the orphanage. I have posted the trailer below. I plan on purchasing the DVD and CD to support the cause.

Just Not That Into You

So I'm single, not doing that much mingling. I went out with this guy a few weeks ago. I am not feeling him. I can go down a list of reasons why but I will spare you my rambling. Let's just say I am older and feel like his big sister when we talk. I thought I had told him this in so many words without being blunt. But he is very persistent and keeps calling Every day. I know men have various good ways of telling us they don't want to be bothered, but as a woman how do you tell a guy you are just not into him?

(If you want to know some of the reasons let me know)

ADOPTION

Some of you may be wondering why I have all these adoption blogs I read. Well I hope to one day adopt. At this time in my life I am not prepared. I hope to be soon. But there are so many things going on in the Ethiopian adoption program for singles it got discouraging for a moment. I am believer that life has it seasons and maybe it is not mine yet.

When I tell people that I am going to adopt these are the questions I get
1. Why?
2. Are you sure?
3. You don't want to have kids of your own?
4. Why not adopt from this country.
or the most popular comment
Wait till you get a husband.
Depending on what kind of mood I am in affects the answer they get.

I have decided on adoption because I feel I have been called to do so. When I was younger I asked my mother to adopt a child. It did not happen but in the back of mind I knew I would adopt when I became an adult. In 2005 I returned to school to complete my degree. I completely switched majors and decided on psychology and sociology. I told myself that I may not adopt right know but I could work in the field. I am very dedicated to getting more Afr Americans interested in domestic and international adoption. I started reading blogs. At this time it was very hard for me to find Afr Americans blogging about this. It kinda made me wonder if there were any out there. To my delight I found some(Praise Jesus). I hope they don't mind me looking at their blogs.

One of my personal dilemmas with adoption is that I would be a single mother right know. I would love to have a husband and have children or adopt children with him, but getting married is not guaranteed neither is having children naturally. I am not giving up but I am realistic. I want my child to have a father, but also think that there are so many orphans that one parent could be better than no parent. I don't know. I go back and forth on this all the time.

So I will stop here. This post could become a whole book. More to come later.

Who's is better?

Who do you think did it best?

It's Church Time

My song for today is "Ordinary Just Won't Do" by Commissioned. Love this song. It got me through my last semester of college. Don't really know why that song did it but it did. Maybe it is because I completed my practicum at a crisis nursery where parents would drop of their children ages newborn to 10 yrs old for a day or a week. I would read those files of the kids and just have that sinking feeling in my stomach. You look at your life and you just thank God for his blessing on your life. Just listen to the words of this song. I don't see how you can't be touched by them.
Peace

The Men

I had a hard time picking just one song today. These three men are probably my favorite male artists. OK maybe there are a few more but I'll start with these.

D'angelo, whom I can't wait till he comes out with new music. I don't care what his body looks like he is still alright with me. "Heaven Must Be Like This" is a remake from the live CD of his. This CD is hard to find but of course I have it.

Maxwell, who I would marry if I had the opportunity. Went to his concert a few months ago. I still have a euphoric feeling from that, but I do wish he would hurry up on the new CD. So I had a real hard time picking a song from him. "Lifetime" is a good one. You will be hearing more from him.

Lenny Kravitz, Hot musically and physically. I love the rock, soul, alternative vibe he has going on. "I Belong to You" is one of my favorite's from him. The words just get to me. You will hear a few more from him also.

Peace, Love, And Music

The Dirty South

OK, it is about 3-5 inches of snow outside and I am missing the ATL right now. I started my college career at Clark Atlanta University. I can only remember it icing once the 3 years I was there. Cold or let me rephrase Cool weather I can deal with, but come on now snow.................. Give me a break. I grew up here in the Midwest where the weather changes in a blink of an eye but I don't like winter. Period.

In Honor

My new song is "We are One" by Maze. Maze is my mom's favorite band. I happen to like them also. I picked this song in honor of our new president and what he is trying to do for our country; bring us together.
Peace

President Obama

I thought these were some great images. This is exactly what our new president needs. The second image was taken here in St.Louis last year at a convention. The first image is by an local artist Cbabi Bayoc here in St.Louis. I have included a link. Check him out. He is very talented.

Remember This

This song doesn't get played that much but I remember when it came out. I had a fascination with music videos. This video had so many cool artists and it pays tribute to and american hero.

Happy Birthday To A King

Today is Dr. Martin Luther King's Birthday. We as a nation may celebrate his life on Monday, but today I wanted to remind myself as well as others what a powerful speaker he was and a wonderful man. Check out the video.

Who Do You Love?

When I think of love I think of my family. But the best decision I have made in my life is allowing myself to fall in love with my savior. You don't realize how empty you were until you allow that love to overtake your life.

My new song is a simple praise and worship song: "Falling In Love With Jesus" sang by Jonathan Butler. No further explanation needed

Be blessed.

Butterflies

I love butterflies and I love Christmas. Pottary barn had these ornaments in their stores over the holiday so I bought 4 of them. That cost me $20 on sale. I like to change the way my tree looks every year so it can get costly. After closer investigation of these ornaments I said "self you can make these." I have a whole year to get myself ready for christmas 2009. When I am done I hope that my tree looks like this :

I'll keep you posted.

Killer Joe

My Song for today is "Killer Joe" by Quincy Jones. This man is a genius when it comes to music. When someone can write and produce jazz, r&b, gospel, hip hop, etc that is a true gift.

You may say "why choose this song it has few lyrics?" A good song sometimes has few lyrics but affects you the same as if it had a lot. This song makes me pat my feet, smile, rock from side to side, dance around. I just love this song.

Hope you enjoy it.

Closer

My new song is "Closer" By Goapele. This is the ring tone on my cell. I love it. The song constantly reminds me that I am getting closer to my dreams. There is a line in the song that says " sometimes you just got to let it go." I that is what I have done. I have gone to God about the things that I want for my life, things that I think I need, but ultimately all things are done on God's timing not mine. No need for me to worry. I serve an awesome God. I will sit back and watch the awesome things he will do in my life. I am getting closer to my dreams.

Enjoy!

Exhausted

OK it's Sunday and I am extremely tired. I sing in my church choir and we have to be there at 7:30 am. This kinda creates a problem when you can't go to sleep for some strange reason and then when you do, you wake around 3:00 am like it's the right time to be up. Next thing I know I am watching Cold Case repeats.

After a great morning of worship and the word, I get home about 1:00pm eat and lay down to take a nap. What happens? As soon as I get going good (sleep)the doorbell rings. It's family can't be to upset.

I gave up.

Everything You Touch

So my first song selection is The Winans, "Everything You Touch is a Song." I choose this song because there is more to a song than the beat, melody, or particular artist sound. The words get me sometimes even if I don't particularly like the artist. It's amazing how powerful music is. It can make you happy, sad, laugh , or cry.

I remember hearing this song when I was little. I didn't understand the meaning until I was older and experienced life's many ups and downs. Hope you enjoy.

Goals for 2009:

• Pray consistently


• Study the bible at least once a day


• Start my graduate program


• Research home ownership seriously


• Research Ethiopian adoption seriously


• Pay off some debt


• Exercise


• Get a new job


• Save more

These are a few of the goals that came to mind that I would like to accomplish this year. This is one of the reasons I started this blog. Pastor Kim last sunday said that if someone else knows your goals, dreams and aspirations that it is more likely you will stick to a plan to make sure achievement is met. I believe this to be true because people wont let you forget. She asked us to write down something that we wanted to change for the year 2009 on a piece of paper and give it to another member in the church so they could not only remind them of what they wrote but also pray for them. Thought it was a good idea. I didn't get a chance to participate because I was in the choir stand , but I think this blog entry will be just as good.

Hi,

This is my first blog. I decided to start 2009 documenting my life. I have been stalking a few blogs for the last year or so and thought I would give it a try. Song For You will highlight a new song each week. People close to me know that I love music, so this is the first idea that popped into my mind. Hope you enjoy.