Thursday, April 30, 2009


My computer is out of commission for awhile. I am tired of messin with it. I am taking it in to be serviced. The stupid thing will not stay on. It keeps restarting itself and then it comes up with an error message about every program that was installed on the freakin pc when I bought it.

I really feel empty without it. I can't read my blogs while I'm at work :(

Computers are like men in my opinion. Can't live with them. Cant live without them.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Any Detectives

I am lovin the new series The No 1 Ladies Detective Agency. I may be a little bias because I love Jill Scott. But I really do think it is a good show. The stories are interesting and anytime I feel as it I could place myself right smack into the show as a character it is a good show. I am just happy to see an African, and African American casted show that is positive. No ignorant, loud talking, profanity yelling, booty shaking, backstabbing, gossiping black women and men. If you haven't watched the show please do and spread the word. WE NEED MORE SHOWS LIKE THIS.

Weekend In Review

I had a crazy weekend. It started Saturday morning. I wasn't feeling well but had to work half a day. Went into work started feeling better. Went to the mall to find missing pieces for my outfit I was going to wear for church. After that I went to get my hair done. My friends and I had plans to go to a dinner and movie. I met at one of my friends house to ride with her. I had not really eaten all day. Just a snack here and there because I wasn't feeling good.
We went to see the movie Obsessed. I was not that impressed. The restaurant we were going to was in the same complex as the theatre so me and two other friends walked over. We were seated. Our orders were taken. I had started feeling bad again as soon as we sat down. I excused myself and went to the restroom. My friend that I rode with called my cell and asked if I was okay. I let her know the deal. She came in the restroom and she said "we are leaving" I really must have looked bad. I could not even drive myself home. She had to drop me off. Needless to say I did not make it to church Sunday. Now I have to deal with the choir police on Tuesday at practice.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

At A Loss

The devil is working very hard on trying to destroy the futures of my family. Last week I wrote about my female cousins and their drama. Now it is one of the males turn.
My cell phone has been losing power for no reason. When I finally got it to work today I had 3 messages. One was from my uncle that lives in Tennessee. He doesn't text me unless it's my birthday or something like that. Well this text was not good news. He asked me to call his youngest son J and talk to him because he was depressed. When I got the opportunity to get in contact with J he didn't say anything to me out of the ordinary. Well I have gotten the whole story from my mother and aunt (J's mother). Needless to say it is not good. J has made some bad choices that could effect his whole future.
We can not share this news with my grandparents because it would worry them to death. They are the rocks of our family and I am very close to them. It is very hard for us to keep things from them because they are so wise. They are also people of deep faith and we go to them for spiritual guidance when we need it. I am asking for prayer for my family.

Friday, April 17, 2009


When I was ten my mom's oldest brother passed away. My mother was very close to him. He had 4 girls and 2 older boys. The girls would come stay with us during the summer after my uncle passed away. They have experienced and seen many things that young ladies should not have. Needless to say they have made many wrong choices in life.

Age wise I am in the middle. Sha 31, Sham 30, Me 29, Sher 24, Shan 23. I worry about them like I am the oldest. They look to my mom as their savior, counselor, etc. Now I am not a perfect individual but I have managed to make pretty good choices. They(cousins) would say that is because I have a great mother and have spent a lot of time with my grandparents and other family members that supported me. This may well be the case. But I know that at some point you have to grow up and look at the things of your past and try and make something better for your future.

They also have at times called me boring or an old lady because I don't club hop, hang out with all kinds of different guys, smoke (you get the picture). But they want some of the peace I have. I want to say Duh. If you don't like how your life is going change your habits.

I realize that I have not been praying for them like I should. I know that is all I can do for them. I can not change how a person thinks or behaves or chooses to live their lives. I can not change how they think about me and how I live mine.

I am adding a new song, "I'll Trust You" by James Fortune. They play this song on the radio. I hope one of them will hear it and truelly listen to the words. Maybe they will figure out that everything can change in their lives with one decision.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Pre Adoption Workshop

I received a flyer from a adoption agency that I don't remember signing up for. It was to inform me of an upcoming meeting pertaining to international adoption programs and requirements and so forth. What I didn't understand is why this meeting requires a fee of $90. Needless to say I did not respond. I don't think you should have to pay for an informational meeting. Maybe I am wrong. For those who have adopted or are in the process, Is this normal?

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Happy Resurrection Day

We are singing this Sunday. Beautiful Song.

Have A Wonderful Easter.

Thursday, April 9, 2009


I had a court hearing today for my volunteer position. I submitted my report detailing the issues concerning the case and the problems that I was having with the father. The judge decided that the child could be returned to father until permanency hearing. The thing that broke my heart was that the current foster parents started crying. It took a lot for me to hold it together. But I used my skills and I talked to them and gave them encouraging words. I let them know that I was praying for them and they thanked me for my help and concern. They were fantastic foster parents. I hope they decide that they would like to participate again because we need tham.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

All that Jazz

My new songs are all jazz cuts. I like jazz. These selections are both vocal and instrumental.

Birdland many artist have played this song. I chose Miles Davis's version because he is from around my way. (East St. Louis) Plus when I danced, my group did a performance to this song. It was beautiful, classy, and powerful.

Brazilian Wedding is on one of Quincy Jones's cd's it was also featured in the Boyz in the Hood movie. The artist include Take 6. and Sarah Vaughn.

You Move Me by Cassandra Wilson words can not describe my love for this song. I love the pitch of her voice and the lyrics of this song. It is just Great! Plus it was featured in my favorite movie Love Jones.

Peace, Love, and Music

Wednesday, April 1, 2009


Do you remember that crazy movie Halle Berry played in B.A.P.S.? You know the crazy hair styles she had. Well I had a woman in my office yesterday that reminded me of her. She had the big hair, crayon yellow blond coloring, and even open faced gold teeth. I kept peeking up at her hair. I tried not to but I couldn't help it. Before she left she handed me a business card. She happened to own a hair salon.HAHAHA. When she left my office I chuckled.

For those of you that don't know I wear my hair natural. So at the moment it is very curly and it gets frizzy. I guess she thought I might need her services. Some people just don't like the natural look. Maybe she thought I was admiring her hair.